Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Response to: the freedom to fail

Thoughts on Michael Goodwin's assertion that loss of failure as an imperative is crippling the nation.  



Michael Goodwin raises some valid fears regarding our society’s penchant for ignoring the difficult, complicated and disappointing in our efforts to coddle, encourage and edify.   However, there are a few fallacies in his argument. Firstly, Goodwin fails to define what he means by success and failure.  Secondly, he neglects to establish effective filters for differentiating between the two.

Goodwin fails to provide a rubric for both the concepts of success and failure, and his argument requires that we agree with his distinctions. It is unclear whether success is measured by degrees of safety, social capital, academic degrees or financial stability.  Similarly, it is unclear whether failure is measured by degrees of poverty, lack of education or geographic isolation.  When Goodwin mentions social promotion, analyzing the sobering statistics requires a tongue-in-cheek perspective: although seventy-five percent of New York City high school graduates require remedial work to make up for inadequacies in previous education, no policy analyst would solely blame the student; instead, the school system is clearly the flawed institution, and government administrations are meant to account for such shortcomings, as in the well-intentioned vein of No Child Left Behind.  

Such social nets will not go ultimately unchallenged.  The college graduate who works hard to maintain a competitive GPA, takes difficult courses and invests in extracurricular activities will be rewarded when an impressive résumé is presented to future employers.  The college graduate who ignores classes and neglects work will perhaps graduate, but certainly won’t be looked upon favorably when applying to competitive employment positions.  In this scenario, failure is indeed an inevitable outcome for the former case, and eventually a rewarding one.  This challenges what I understand Goodwin to be saying; the core of his argument seems to be not so much that there is an increasing absence of failure, but rather that failure goes unpunished.  This is an invalid assumption. The high school student who graduates unqualifiedly will need remedial work.  The person who buys a cheap but unreliable car will need to compensate for a bad purchase. In this way there seems to be no shortage of failure; failure might simply be described differently in the economic equation: if either buyer or seller perceives the short end of the fiscal stick, the ground will have to be made up eventually. 

At what level in the social ladder should failure as a filtering mechanism be instated? Should there be a lottery system to determine who is allowed to continue on to middle school, for the sake of improving the caliber of output?  Should marketplace exchanges be capped each day in order to encourage a frenzy of early efforts and cutthroat strategies, for the sake of increasing market capital?  If Goodwin’s call for failure for failure’s sake is played out this way, its natural product will not be success, but anarchy, and so the question is an entirely personal one.  The American democratic system allows plenty of room for the freedom to fail—the question is, for how long?

Sunday, December 19, 2010

A not-so-Christmas playlist

Because I just figured out (1) that these exist and (2) I can make them.  
Enjoy some of my favorite songs from the past year!



Saturday, December 11, 2010

Little Women

Finals begin on Monday, so of course today instead of studying I went with my apartmentmate Hannah and friend Lydia to the Orchard House in Concord, MA.  The home of Louisa May Alcott, it's also where she wrote AND set Little Women, the quintessential fourth grade girl's favorite book.  aHEM.  Anyway, you can take tours year-round, but on the first few Saturdays of December there is special Christmas programming, so the usual tour is punctuated with a Christmas story featuring Louisa and her sisters May, Anne and mother Marmee in period dress, and Mr. March dressed as Saint Nicholas.  Even more than revisiting a beloved book, though, I loved feeling like a little girl again.  You know those "field trips" you take with your families when you're younger?  Well, I loved them. Gillette Castle in CT, America's Stonehenge in New Hampshire and the Salem Witch Museum were all places that I visited with my family, and they stoked my young imagination to dreams of secret passageways, castles, rituals and friendships, much as they should.  I am so grateful my parents were insightful enough to encourage these experiences and make sure their children understand that the world is big--both in space and time.  It also makes me really grateful to be going to school in the Boston area, where there are even more of these stories so close nearby.  


Here are some photos from the trip.  Enjoy!  

Friday, December 10, 2010

on protection

So many conversations lately have centered on the conflict of involvement in and avoidance of government, and the type of government created by either response.  The recent WikiLeaks publicity has prompted an even more visceral response to "invasions of privacy" and alleged conspiracy.  I'm somewhat privileged in such conversations; as a non-citizen, I'm allowed to comment at-a-distance, scrutinize, support and remain skeptical without any real need to actually take a side.  I can align myself with Republicans or Democrats, with the Tea Party movement or Constitution Party, but at the end of the day I'm not beholden to any real view, and I can redact any strong opinion without any consequences, because my vote wouldn't matter in such cases anyway.  I can criticize whatever government strategy I want, and my statements don't need to fit a certain ideological mold.  

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Dear December

1. First grad school application IN
2. Family. Together.
3. Finals, papers, and theses
4. The Orchard House
5. My new winter jacket=LOVE
6. First date and raisin biscuits of the season-success!
7. New York City visits
8. Where is the snow??
9. Wisdom teeth
10. Two apartmentmates graduating  :-(
11. Lasts.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Weekend in Denver

Carrie Sawyer is one of the best people God ever deigned to put on the Earth. She has been a constant encouragement, joy, and fellow wild spirit, and so I jumped at the opportunity to visit her in her new home: Denver, CO. Enjoy some photos from the journey!

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

in a chair in the sky

I'm right now between two scheduled plane trips.  I've just returned from GLORIOUS Denver (pictures to follow!), and next Tuesday I'm headed down to South Carolina to visit my sister.

I have a conflicted relationship with airplanes. While I'm enormously grateful for the speed and relative reliability with which I can simply cross the world (!!!!), I'm thoroughly aware that at every moment we are breaking the laws of gravity. Not just breaking the laws, though--laughing at them.  Aware that they are ever and always at work, but content to allow the Navier-Stokes equations to get in the way.

So when I started to freak out on the way to Denver and Zach, my nice neighbor and a frequent air-traveler, tried to console me by saying that "the worst case scenario, Nicole, is that we land," I vehemently disagreed. Worst case scenario: we crash.  That is a possibility.  That can happen. It DOES happen.

Louis Black tells my story perfectly.

We are allowed to participate in the miracle of flight! Perhaps this is reading too much into my situation and fear, but I think a very Christian response is to at all times recognize the immense strides man has had to take to even understand the laws of nature, never mind supersede them with our scientific feats.

And that reality is even more believable when sitting five rows behind the pilot in nose-dive positioning.  MERCY.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

up in the air

Above all else, I'm afraid of boredom. I'm afraid of being stuck. I'm not just wary of not being entertained--I'm well aware of how draining it is to be "on" one hundred percent of the time, and sometimes periods of retreat and refreshment and solace are entirely necessary.

But to succumb to ennui, while the world is awake and inviting and OPEN? While there is brokenness to fight and people to love and worlds by which to be taught? While there are mountains to climb and seas to swim in and friends to make and roads to run and fresh air to breathe?

Portrait of the notoriously super-social ENFP: believes in a bizarre cosmic whole; great deal of zany charm; disconcertingly spontaneous; short attention span; tends to get bored easily; incredibly intellectual-turned-captain wildchild; global learner


I want to forever rail against consolation, and not just philosophically. There is work to be done here. Now. There are systems to be assessed, and structural injustices to be understood.

And then there is personal sin. Not so small, but overlooked most of the time. Sometimes I really see interpersonal workings as pointless, when macro-level changes from policy and legislature and entrepreneurship are so much more inviting in their scope and promise. Things are meant to work together.

And we are to use who we are, not lie around lazily until some third party assigns us work, but to passionately and fully be ourselves.


How do we remain interested? Interesting?

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Dear November

1. DENVER (and Carrie Sawyer)
2. Tango music
3. PEER freaking REVIEW
4. Day of Prayer
5. Thanksgiving in South Carolina
6. Candace's Basic Training graduation
7. Kant's Prolegomena
8. Chapel talk
9. Latin Easter Vigil

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Augustinian restlessness

It was around this time last year that I was working on a presentation of C. S. Lewis' Perelandra, that great work on restlessness and homelessness and supernatural identity.

This article has come just in time.


Tuesday, November 2, 2010

FINALLY, cause to like Hume

"Abstruse thought and profound researches I prohibit and will severely punish by the pensive melancholy which they introduce, by the endless uncertainty in which they involve you and by the cold reception which your pretended discoveries shall meet with, when communicated. Be a philosopher, but, amid all your philosophy, be still a man."

Enquiry Concerning Human Understanding, Section 1

new favorite

OHMYGOODNESS.

Sunday, October 24, 2010

emerging worms

Brian McLaren makes me cry. And not in a joyful "oh what a kindred spirit" way; in a desperate "I fear for us ALL" sort of way.

Friday, October 22, 2010

tips on how to improve your life

This selection of videos from "dontbethatguy" promises to make you a better friend, Christian and even human.

Friday, October 15, 2010

Handful of mud

I recently read a paper on human evolution entitled "Recent Genetic Science and Christian Theology on Human Origins: An 'Aesthetic Supralapsarianism'” by John Schneider.  Pardon the academic recycling, but I thought it a remarkably interesting paper, and so want to put my thoughts "out there" in hopes of being sharpened and refined.

Friday, October 8, 2010

Apartment photo shoot

Thanks to the wonderful Peter Morse, my apartmentmates and I were provided some wonderful photos to document the beginning of a wonderful semester. Here are some of my favorites!


I particularly like this one because I had just
cracked a joke about our positioning, and Jae and I are on the
absolute verge of losing it.



This one was taken (illegally) on top of
Frost Hall, Gordon's admissions/faculty offices building.
It's actually the reflection in the water on top
of the unfinished portion, and I would like to note that
two inches behind us the ledge drops down two
stories to the road. Oh, the lengths women go to
concretize their beauty. ;-)


This is why Jae and I get along so well. :-)



Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Dear October

1. Brendhan's Basic Training graduation
2. Graduate Record Examination
3. Richard Wilbur's A Hole in the Floor
4. Pride and Prejudice piano music
5. Requiems
6. Plane tickets
7. Bobotie and chutney and
8. South Africa overload
9. Wendell Berry's Fidelity and tears, tears, tears

Friday, September 17, 2010

Pilgrim's Chorus, from Richard Wagner's Tannhauser

Once more with joy O my home I may meet

Once more ye fair, flowr'y meadows I greet
My Pilgrim's staff henceforth may rest
Since Heaven's sweet peace is within my breast.
The sinner's `plaint on high was heard
On high was heard and answered by the Lord
The tears I laid before His shrine
Are turned to hope and joy divine.
O Lord eternal praise be Thine!
The blessed source of Thy mercy overflowing
On souls repetant seek Ye, all-knowing
Of hell and death, I have no fear
O my Lord is ever near
Alleluia! Alleluia! Alleluia!
Forevermore

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=299iYHF4x1s

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Dear September

1. Twenty one years
2. Goodbye, sister
3. GRE: <1 month
4. Aluminum foil
5. Greeting card fetish
6. What it means to love my dad
7. Paul Ricoeur
8. Gordon in Lynn and HOMES
9. Sugar Magnolia's

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

I said, 'we were not stocks and stones' — 'tis very well. I should have added, nor are we angels, I wish we were, — but men cloathed with bodies, and governed by our imaginations.

(Laurence Sterne, "The Life and Opinions of Tristram Shandy")

Monday, July 26, 2010

why M. Night Shyamalan keeps getting better

"The Last Airbender" aside, I want to offer a defense of Shyamalan. He's earned it. In the years since "The Sixth Sense," Shyamalan has directed an impressive body of work, a fact made even more impressive when we consider that many of those films were written by Shyamalan himself. But I want to go back to the film that first made audiences bow in awe before the fabled storyteller. As a master storyteller, Shyamalan has mastered the very surreal element of surprise. With regard to "The Sixth Sense," for example, we didn't sit in our theater seats wondering just how this film was going to wrap up from Bruce Willis's perspective. In fact, we didn't know what to wonder in the first place. We bore witness to a heartbreaking meld of family dynamics, mourning, friendship and love--all very carnal and perpetual elements of the lives of even the youngest of us. And that is the point. As Cole and his earnest psychologist wrestled with stained, untied and even absolutely rent threads, we weren't asked to rely on the supernatural to solve the mystery or even lend some meaning to the stories. Who hasn't experienced the loss of a loved one and wished for one last conversation, one last attempt to gain parental approval, or to make peace with a friend? What was most tear-inducing about the film, at least for me, was the scene between Cole and his mother in the car in which Cole revealed that his grandmother was so proud of her daughter, which ultimately brought peace and gratefulness to Cole's mom--and a little bit of resolution for us. The strength of the story lies not in the revelation that Bruce Willis is struggling to come to terms with the mess that he will leave behind after his death, but that we all will.

A smart filmmaker, a financially savvy one (which Shyamalan has to be, as anyone in The Industry would admit) cannot afford to become cliché. When Shyamalan followed "The Sixth Sense" with (skipping a good Mel Gibson flick) "The Village" (my personal favorite of his canon), he was criticized for the lackluster and arguably predictable ending. Admittedly, the "alternate reality" of 19th-century-Covington-Woods-within-modern-day-America was not the most complex scenario Shyamalan's imagination could have wrought; however, it withdrew a creative space in which the deeply and intrinsically human could operate--and even flourish. The farce of "Those We Don't Speak of" and the moaning sounds from the woods aren't THE EVENT in and of themselves; rather, they create the tense environment in which every action could have far-reaching consequences, and in which bravery always means to venture into the forbidden.

What Shyamalan has done is construct a supernatural aspect that has to be in proportion to the contents of the story. Cole is struggling with interactions with the dead, so the context of Malcolm Crowe's limbo is, while impossible, fitting. As are the circumstances of "The Village." To have fit a similar supernatural element to the characters of Covington Woods would have been laughable--even ridiculous. And that is the absolute beauty of Shyamalan's vision. Even in light of the farce of the red cloaks and alternate reality-esque conditions, it was Ivy and Lucius who necessitated the story's unfolding, who propelled it forward. Shyamalan seems to have a superbly crafted motif in mind behind each of his films. He moves from mourning to faith/family to love to Deep Ecology to purpose to connectedness, and yet we deny him the freedom to care about how we participate in our lives and the lives of those we touch. Shyamalan wants to ensure that we become whole and real, even if he needs to bring in fantasy and the monsters of our imaginations to pound us over the heads with our self-absorption and stuck situations. It is not Shyamalan who has lost his zeal; it is his audience that doesn't like to be challenged and grown by stories that are collectively our own. We are not more discriminating in our tastes; we are in severe denial.

Friday, July 23, 2010

the ACLU is NOT evil.

Recently I've come to understand that despite my deep affiliation with the Christian Church, I am at heart a supporter of civil liberties, and seem to have an easier time than most Christians separating my religious tendencies from what I see as the true role of government--especially a democratic one. I always plan on enduring morally by my understanding of biblical truth, but will hopefully always be able to understand the limits of a national morality--and not despair too dramatically the differences.

I am ALL for separation of Church and State.

So is THIS guy.

Lord, save us from a Christian government. 


"We do not need to get good laws to restrain bad people. We need to get good people to restrain us from bad laws." 
 G.K. Chesterton

Thursday, June 24, 2010

the fulcrum point

Not blindly the decision is made--
tentatively, but it is not necessarily
a bad one. Nor is its alternative,
but that does not matter right now.
What does matter is
this middle ground, the
conversation between right
and right.
To cover with leaves the
agony of indecision--greater than
shame.
It's unavoidable, though,
the dash between dawn and dusk,
and midday offers no sunlit clarity.
Tear off the flimsy leaves, Adam;
they do not conceal your wavering.

Sunday, June 20, 2010

when life hands you waders...

...go fly-fishing in the Manistee River! My time at Au Sable in Mancelona, Michigan proved to be some of the most healing time I've ever had. To be in such a raw and alive place was such a blessing--and a great time of refreshment. Some lessons:




There is a lot you can read in three weeks. Sometimes you even get in an
entire season of LOST! We started every morning at 7:30 with community
breakfast (and rotating dish duty) and would sometimes spend up
to nine hours in the field!




The Michigan Department of Natural Resources
has a lot lot lot to learn about the tenuous
relationships between species--especially
stupid flies and stupider caterpillars. These
things were everywhere, and sometimes when
all else was still and quiet, the only sounds to be
heard were the tiny drops of caterpillar poop
falling through the leaves. GROSS.




All of life's stresses can be solved by viewing
the world from the vantage point of the top
of a glorious dune--especially if getting to the
top involved a race. Even MORE so if you
were the winner of said race.




You will get more excited about a rose-breasted
grosbeak sighting than you ever thought possible.




The Mid-West has some remarkably ethereal
celestial occurrences.




Best friends and rivers are
a winning combination :-).

Saturday, April 24, 2010

teleology

If I could laugh every day until my stomach writhed in pain, I think I would die a deliriously happy girl.

Monday, March 22, 2010

on disabilities, and why I believe in miracles

I'm still thinking about miracles--those events which so violently oppose the laws of nature we've formulated that they require some sort of supernatural explanation. Some suggest that certain laws can be violated, but only by other laws. For example, the law of gravity be superseded by aerodynamics. A more Christian question might ask whether God's grace supersede the laws of sin and death, a deeply serious question centered around Christ's death and resurrection. I had lunch with a professor I trust deeply and asked him point blank whether he believes in miracles. "My daughter giving birth was a miracle," he responded after a moment, suggesting that miracles been "prepared for," a thoughtful God writing their possibilities into the fabric of time and space, even if we don't understand their physics. While that didn't entirely answer my question the way I'd posed it (as a scientific one--the framing of religious questions in scientific language is another conversation), it did make me think for a very long time. I struggle with the typical scientist's ego: I have studied this world enough that I can make assumptions about its behavior, and I know enough of the world's details to understand its grandeur. We can manufacture artificial limbs, hearts, even faces. Are we engaged in creativity? or miracle-performance?


While the definition of "miracle" is necessary (as is any definition when you want to have a thoughtful conversation about its implications), it is debated. Perhaps it requires supernatural explanation. Perhaps they don't happen (indeed, some thoughtful and God-fearing churches have the official stance that miracles were limited to the apostolic age). The mere fact that there are saliences in our world, the mere fact that sometimes things don't happen as we-in-our-wisdom would predict should be so incredibly humbling, and smacks, perhaps, of a God who still smiles when we try to amass all our knowledge and turn it into official canon of biblical proportions.

I was particularly struck by this in a sermon and a small experience I had on Sunday. Again I ventured into Boston to go to Park Street Church, this time with a group of girls from my floor. We were speaking in the car of disabilities, as one of my girls' sisters has severe dyslexia and has struggled for years with learning how to read, something I so flippantly regard as simple. Park Street Church was celebrating Enable Boston Sunday this particular day, a day to remember those in the congregation and greater Boston area who struggle with all sorts of disabilities. One woman gave a testimony, speaking of her son's head injury that has since left him with severe short-term memory loss, an inability to speak, and myriad other supposed "disabilities." Mrs. McLeod, however, spoke to her son's strange interactions with God, telling us stories of finding her son awake at 3 in the morning, praying at the side of his bed. Pastor Gordon Hugenberger then got up and spoke on Ehud, a man disabled in his right hand yet who used his right hand to slay the evil Moabite king (Judges 3 v 12-30). He then pointed out that we all suffer from a certain disability--the disability of sleep. We are all limited by this crazy one third of our lives that we spend asleep. Depriving ourselves of sleep is psychologically damaging at best, fatal at worst.

Brothers, think of what you were when you were called. Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many were influential; not many were of noble birth. But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. He chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things—and the things that are not—to nullify the things that are, so that no one may boast before him. It is because of him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God—that is, our righteousness, holiness and redemption. Therefore, as it is written: “Let him who boasts boast in the Lord.”
(1 Corinthians 1:26-31)

I left the church in a weird mood. Moving forward with my group's lunch plans--a visit to an improvisational diner called "Fire and Ice," which lets you watch your (unlimited) choice of raw vegetables, meats, pastas, etc. and sauce be cooked by master chefs on a giant center flat grill. I was waiting for a brunch omelette to be prepared when there was a little commotion beside me. A group of disabled adults from a home in Boston had come to Fire and Ice on a field trip, and the man next to me didn't realize that you're not supposed to mix your sauce with your food before given to the chef. It makes the food more flavourful and easier to cook if the sauce is added to the mix toward the end, and so while the chef gently suggested that Tom (the man next to me) hold onto his sauce the next time so he could enjoy an even yummier plate, Tom just couldn't process what was being said to him, and he looked at me with the most sorrowful expression of guilt--what had he done wrong?? And so I gently and more slowly explained what I thought the chef was trying to say. Perhaps he was grateful for my kind voice, or perhaps he was just excited to talk to someone (and show off his nifty ID card:-)), but his appreciation was so overwhelming that I had to go to the bathroom to cry for a few minutes.

I think humility is a miracle. I think I tend SO MUCH toward pride and arrogance that any small act of gratefulness toward me that drives me to my modest knees can't be part of the way I naturally function. In all my egoism and smugness as to how much knowledge I've accrued in my short time here, I'm still at the mercy of God, and how much he knows about what I truly care about. That he knows me so well to bless me as he wills and to show me the depths of my sin--I can think of no other word than miracle.

And that I'm crying as I recall the experience is no less miraculous. I'm so grateful for the ways in which the Lord seems to say "See? I TOLD you I know you better than anyone else!" He weaves himself in and out of our stories so effortlessly and yet so powerfully, as if proving to us that we are never out of his immediate grasp. So I don't pray for evidence of his presence anymore; I pray to be battered, like John Donne's INCREDIBLE poem. Humble me, and show me why I'm little.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Worlds...and miracles therein?

For Alexander there was no Far East,
Because he thought the Asian continent
India ended. Free Cathay at least
Did not contribute to his discontent.

But Newton, who had grasped all space, was more
Serene. To him it seemed that he'd but played
With several shells and pebbles on the shore
Of that profundity he had not made.

(Richard Wilbur)


I'm taking a class this semester called "Reality with Physics and Philosophy," an exploration of the physical laws that govern this monster we call the universe and how those might accommodate an active God or exclude an inactive one--or vice versa on both accounts. Now Schrodinger's cat makes sense to me, that the quantum mechanics of the universe suggest a probabilistic universe, even if that flies in the face of intuition and instinct. I understand general relativity as a reworking of the laws of gravitation that become problematic when we leave the earth's atmosphere, and time dilation and length contraction are all understandable in terms of Star Trek analogies (a Klingon ship approaches the Enterprise at warp speed with a photon beam that can only shoot perpendicularly to its target--should Captain Kirk fear for the crew's safety, or is Spock correct in assuring the worried Captain that all will be well??). Hume and Polkinghorne and discussions on miracles, however, are all entirely bothersome to me.

"Suppose," Hume offers, "for instance, that the fact, which the testimony endeavours to establish, partakes of the extraordinary and the marvellous; in that case, the evidence, resulting from the testimony, admits of a diminution, greater or less, in proportion as the fact is more or less unusual. The reason why we place any credit in witnesses and historians, is not derived from any connexion, which we perceive a priori, between testimony and reality, but because we are accustomed to find a conformity between them. But when the fact attested is such a one as has seldom fallen under our observation, here is a contest of two opposite experiences; of which the one destroys the other, as far as its force goes, and the superior can only operate on the mind by the force, which remains. The very same principle of experience, which gives us a certain degree of assurance in the testimony of witnesses, gives us also, in this case, another degree of assurance against the fact, which they endeavour to establish; from which contradiction there necessarily arises a counterpoize, and mutual destruction of belief and authority."

I'll forgive his disgusting overuse of commas and launch right into discontent--a miracle is something with a probability of zero. Lazarus being raised from the dead directly and violently violates of physics and the nature of death. Blind people being granted sight before Jordy's goggles even planted that idea in modern audiences' minds SHOULD NOT HAPPEN. Can the superior experiences of those who have died staying that way apart from our mythologies, of those born without sight forever resigned to encounter this world differently (not inadequately, just differently) be contradicted by Hume's opposite experience of a miracle...and win? Are there miracles? I had lunch with a professor I trust very much and asked him this question. "My daughter giving birth," he said, "was a miracle." Personally, my uncle was shot over 90% of his body and given less than a 1% chance of survival. To this day he professes the miracle of healing. But he wasn't dead. Have miracles been downgraded in our scientifically-advantaged times? Are they simply "cool things that happen," or are we actually having experiences with the divine? Have miracles been "prepared for," a thoughtful God writing their possibilities into the fabric of time and space, even if we don't understand their physics?

I suppose you can infer my real question--does God interact with the world he supposedly set in motion? I wish I could say yes, but I'm afraid that more and more I lean the other way...I want SO BADLY to believe in the God who cries over our suffering, and admits no design for it in creation but works against it in our sin, but I listened to a radio broadcast with a rabbi a while ago who has struggled heartbreakingly with the death of his son forty years ago of progeria (rapid-aging syndrome) and says he and God have reached "an accommodation with each other," recognizing each other's weaknesses and yet caring deeply for each other. Do miracles even matter, then? Some churches have the official stance that miracles were limited to the apostolic age, but then I think some working definition of miracle is necessary (of course it has been from the beginning, but even more so when drawing comparisons to Jesus' ministry and ours). Is it a phenomenological one, trying to explain events? Is it an epistemological one, trying to understand facts that don't quite fit our notion of truth? Is in an ontological one, trying to understand why things are the way they are?

So Polkinghorne (who only allows one miracle: the Resurrection) and Augustine (who preaches the presence of God at all times) don't really get along. And I can see how non-Christians might see miracles as evidence of a discriminating God. But again--the first thing we need is a definition. Perhaps all things can be explained in hindsight--hands healing back, only being able to read Scripture, the Red Sea parting for the Israelites...but perhaps the timing of such events matters more than we know. Perhaps the natural processes of this world can result in phenomena, but perhaps it is the timing that has been prepared for by God--those "one in a trillion" chances--that lay the foundation for God's dealings with humanity, and allow us to struggle with the ways we think he interacts with a fallen world that claims no need of him...

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Landscape with the Fall of Icarus (by William Carlos Williams, ecphrastically on Pieter Brueghel's painting of the same name)

According to Brueghel
when Icarus fell
it was spring

a farmer was ploughing
his field
the whole pageantry

of the year was
awake tingling
near

the edge of the sea
concerned
with itself

sweating in the sun
that melted
the wings' wax

unsignificantly
off the coast
there was

a splash quite unnoticed
this was
Icarus drowning

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

you should go outside

...but not before listening to this song by Joanna Newsom.

DO IT.

Sunday, January 10, 2010

all creation groans

I’ve a strange fascination with death, especially so as trying to understand it from a Christian perspective. We know of no thing that does not die, or, at least, nothing apart from “inanimate” objects. Our entire classification of what differentiates a living from a non-living organism centers on the fact that the former will, inevitably, have to face death. All evolutionary theories (and sociological theories, and psychological theories, and political theories, and culture theories, etc.) have as their underlying assumption the idea that our world longs to contradict its impending entropy, that we want to outrun death, that we want to survive. This world, with its limits and balances, sees death on all sides, and our existence as one large response to those boundaries.

Was our world created—was life created—with death in mind? Or have we just learned to adapt surprisingly well to it? Or are we even asking the right questions? Can we take the liberty of interpreting death (or facing it at the very least) in theological terms? If God foreknew that man would fall and yet still created us, is death the punishment for our ensuing sin, or is it, perhaps, the final show of His great love, a demonstration that there is a way out of this Paradise Lost, a promise that even the fall can be redeemed?

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

stuff white people think

In 2006, Smirnoff's viral video "Tea Partay" became one of youtube's most-watched videos. A satire of the New England "preppie" culture, it features P-Unit, a cohort of three pastel-colored polo shirt upper-middle class "old money" white rappers talking about their Ivy-league educations, croquet games, yacht rides and Martha's Vineyard vacations. An undeniably hilarious commentary, it exposes quite a startling truth, and raises an often unasked question: what, exactly, is white culture?

One of comedian Daniel Tosh's routines combats this quite bluntly. It's easy, he says, to imitate the "hispanic," "asian" and "black" stereotypes, or at least create a caricature that is fairly recognizable and understood as somewhere along an ethnically appropriate continuum. What is the white stereotype? Is it the plaid-clad hillbilly? Is it the glasses-wearing young intellectual? Is it the yuppie? Is it the American? the European? the Australian? the South African? Is white culture, perhaps, the most difficult to pin down? Is there an advantage in struggling to establish some identity of race and ethnicity, and how do we go about actually establishing it?

History would appear to comment on this in a tongue-in-cheek way; it was occurrences such as the slavery movement of pre-Civil War America, the Civil Rights Movement of the 50s and 60s, apartheid in South Africa, the Holocaust, the establishment of Native American reservations, etc., that seem to have been most influential and formative to that end. The effects of British, French, German, Dutch and Spanish imperialism don't seem to have extended so far into the present day lives of white people nearly as much as they have for those in Rwanda, the Phillipines, South Africa and Haiti, to name a few. Is the most accurate box to check in the ethnicity portion of a census questionnaire for a caucasian, then, "other?"

The Atlantic Monthly ran an article in January of 2009 called "The End of White America?" by Hua Hsu, a professor at Vassar College. The article included the following commentary from Matt Wray, a sociologist at Temple University. "[These students are in the midst of a racial-identity crisis.] They don't care about socioeconomics; they care about culture. And to be white is to be culturally broke. The classic thing white students say when you ask them to talk about who they are is, 'I don't have a culture.' They might be privileged, they might be loaded socioeconomically, but they feel bankrupt when it comes to culture...They feel disadvantaged, and they feel marginalized." Commenting on the self-deprecation which whites often employ in order to avoid external lambasting (Smirnoff's video as one example), Wray notes that "the best defense is to be constantly pulling the rug out from underneath yourself...You're forced as a white person into a sense of ironic detachment."

So it would appear that white culture is not so much bland as it is "unmarked." Anthropologist Arjun Appadurai explains unmarked culture to be "a virtually open-ended archive of differences" and marked culture to be one in which "particular differences are emphasized as constituting the defining features of group identity" (from
Diaspora, identity, and religion: new directions in theory and research, by Waltraud Kokot, Khachig Tölölyan and Carolin Alfonso). America's pride as the "melting pot" hasn't so much left it bereft of white culture as much as it has allowed white culture to be touched by all others, leaving its borders undefined and its constituents, well, in somewhat of a retro-diaspora.

All this to say, enjoy the two linked videos...thoughtfully, ironically and responsibly.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PTU2He2BIc0
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-q-4XKTHJGs&feature=related