the hound of heaven has fangs

"God is pursuing you," a friend said to me, "and it's not your typical courtship, full of sunrises and chocolates and warm butterfly feelings. Most of the time God's pursuance involves heartache in some other area of your life that only He knows is distracting you from Him."

Bucket list--open for renovations

1. Drag race on the salt flats of Utah

2. Summit Mt. Rainier

3. Run a marathon

4. Bungee jump off a bridge in Australia

5. Spend intentional time in community

6. Learn German

7. Read everything by Madeleine L'Engle. And Wendell Berry. And Annie Dillard.

8. Learn to love deeply

9. See the Grand Canyon

10. Get to the highest point of every state in the US

11. Adopt one to twenty dogs

12. Learn all the words to "We Didn't Start the Fire"

13. Revisit South Africa

14. Practice hospitality everyday

15. Do something with my degree that actually matters
16. Vote in an election
17. Hike the North Country Trail in its entirety
18. Realize daily that the world is BIG

thunder and lightning, very very frightening!

You know you're in the right major when a somewhat simple statement with regard to loving the heavy rains that the rest of the campus finds a nuisance and bother develops into a 20-minute long philosophical discussion on the pleasantness and necessity of "insideness."

You also know you're a philosophy major when you can pass off "insideness" as a word.

ah, but it's cold outside

In defiance of today's clouds I've donned a bright orange dress in an attempt to fight both a case of the Mondays and a case of the dull-ies. If I can elicit some smiles from the mildly depressed, my temporary lack-of-dignity will have served its purpose well. After winter's glorious first snow I'm tempted to sleep outside in my warmest clothes and bask in the richness of all of its freshness. The wind it brought along has created an interesting effect that is still visible today: the snow has been smacked into only one side of the trees, so that someone walking from the wrong direction will get the idea that the trees on Gordon's campus remained immune to the harsh frost of the violent flakes. Sunday's early morning sunlight reflected brightly off the new and untouched ground, creating the ethereal effect of dancing shadows and clearer-than-usual rays of light. Today was a little bit dull by comparison, with the remnants of eager footprints and snowmen having disrupted the newness and stillness of the snow. The little bit of dirt that's been mixed in has turned it to a dull brown color; still, I cannot fault intrepid spirits from embracing all that they can of Narnia's wet and wild paradise. These gifts are meant to be enjoyed.

my lonely little life

I journeyed into Beantown yesterday for a concert by a band I've come to love these past few months called Good Old War. They are a surprisingly high-energy acoustic folk ensemble comprised of three youngish guys who dance more than they sing and commanded the audience of about 150 (standing room only) with the grace of seasoned pros, even though they were only on tour to promote their first CD. Normally I avoid the opening band, expecting something a tad lackluster and unoriginal, but Good Old War chose to tour with Hezekiah Jones, a fourty-something piece band that tours in variable size ensembles--for us it was a four-member band (guitarist, violinist, string bassist and drummer) that crafted a rough-around-the-edges beauty that was overwhelmingly breathtaking. They brought a stunningly simple and mellow sound, with poignant and elegant lyrics complemented by the plucking of the string bass and the beautifully rough voice of the lead singer. The honesty and quiet thoughtfulness of the words lent to a remarkably stirring response in many of the audience members--especially me. Here are the lyrics and audio to one of my favorites of the performance, called Nothing's Bound--although "Postpone," "Agnes of the World" and "How Do You Feel About Traveling" were equally heartbreaking and true.

Nothing’s Bound

I hope this letter finds you well
you took pleasure in the small things
when I could barely tell
Now that I've found you gone
replaced with memory
I write you this song

I carry all your themes around
realities in love
and how nothing's bound
to the next

You’re not in my world but still in my heart
sorry I left without explaining my part

But I thought you knew me
I thought you knew me
Things really have changed so much
you were always gone
and I missed your touch
all those nights and that lonely ache
the rip in my heart you managed to make

Well I carry all your themes around
realities in love
and how nothing’s bound
to the next

‘Cause of you I didn’t want no one
time heals wounds and I move on

I thought I knew you
I thought I knew you

if I forget your face I’ll remember your name
if anyone asks well I’ll take the blame